
Friday, February 13, 2009
A childs love

Flowers Kisses and Hearts



I would like to take a moment and thank everyone who comments and follows my blog. When I started this I had no Idea what it would be nor how I would feel about writing my feelings on a page that people could view. I'm happy to say that I love it, I feel close to you all, I follow your blogs and get some insight to what others are feeling, and this also helps me when I need another view of things. There are people in this world that I feel comfortable telling things to, and it would seem that all of you who follow my blog are just those kinds of people. Because most of my followers are ladies these hearts kisses and flowers are for you.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Honesty



I'm not sure hot to write this entry. I have a friend who si having a hard time right now with someone in his/her life being dishonest and taking advantage of him/her.
Monday, February 9, 2009
The Nightmare


Its always the same, the only differences is sometimes I'm in my body and at others I am an observer of the whole thing. can you call a memory a nightmare? Every time I sleep I relive the whole accident. I see my arm being pulled deeper and deeper into the mechanics of the forklift, I hear myself scream as the metal squeezes my arm crushing it. The moment that the steel pierces my flesh there is an audible pop as the too weak flesh is opened and the muscles explode and part making way for the unforgiving iron as it travels to the bone, the crack as the intruding steel from both sides meets and shears off the bone that is trying to stop its progress. They say you feel no pain in your dreams, that is false, I feel every nuance of the excruciating moments of the accident, the pain of the intrusion of metal into my flesh, and the burning pain of the pressure of a 50,0000 LB lift crushing my left arm, and finally the sharp almost unbelievable pain as bone is sheared away.
Well I am on a couple of days off......woooohoooooooo, and just sitting and relaxing. Time is mine to do with it what I want. I wish it were spring right now, I would be outside going for long walks with our dog or playing with Rowan in some melt stream ( building a dam or racing stick boats ) I love spring and summer, spring is when the world awakes from its winter slumber and new life abounds, summer is when the world around you is full of joy and carefree attitudes. Here in Canada February is a depressing time, everyone is tired of winter and we have whats called "cabin fever" (the desire to be able to get outside and do things) our days are finally getting longer and the weather is starting to warm up, but its never fast enough. This time of year is also when I most want to see other countries, I would love to go to Japan to see the cherry blossoms or travel to Paris to watch young lovers walk along the rivers edge holding hands. I guess in some ways I'm just a romantic, but that's what spring is for romance and renewal.
All of my followers live in areas far removed from me and I often wonder what they do at different times of the year. I would like to request that you all comment and let me know how things are where you live , what things look like and what do you do this time of the year.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Rowan





For those who follow my blog, you know how important my son Rowan is to me, I have only posted one picture of him before this and now think that it is time to post more. I'll not take up time with meaningless words of who I hope he will become , nor will I fill the time gabbering about how I feel. All I want is for everyone to see the boy who has touched me so deeply and has made me a better person by challenging me to raise a son who matters to this world.
Saturday, February 7, 2009
one pebble
A face in the crowd, a tear in an ocean, is it possible for a single person to make a difference in the wold? There is an old Japanese proverb, "The largest landslides begin with a single pebble" I like that, it gives me hope. I would like to think that one day I could make a difference to the world, I know that I make a difference to those who I love and those who are my friends, but I would like to touch the world, to really make a difference. growing up most kids had heros like the Hulk, or some sports personality, me...... my hero was Walt Disney, strange?, maybe so but you see Walt did alot for the world, he gave every man and woman the opportunity to be a child, through Disneyland and Disney world, through his movies and his weekly programs, Walt made this world a little better for us all. I don't expect to be as big of an influence on the world but I would like to think that there is something I can do to make us all a little better off.
