Wholeness

I know that I have been writing very little of late, mostly it is because I have been feeling lost or fractured. There are a lot of things going on for me right now and most are disturbing to say the least. I am withdrawing into myself and not talking to those who mean the most to me. Both family and friends I fear will not understand the things I am going through. I know that these people both on line and in the corporeal world want to understand and care a great deal about me, but I seem to keep my distance. I tell myself it is for their protection, but I am wondering if it isn't for my protection? I've learned a great deal about my condition (post traumatic stress) and I know that I need help with it, but who can help me( other than god ) and who has the fortitude to help me, I seem to be at an em pass and not sure where or what to do or go. I hope for those who follow my blog they can bare with me a while longer as I fight to get better. I thank all those who help me and listen to me.